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5 Questions for Self-Discovery: [20 Aug 2009|02:59pm]

So, I found these five questions online and thought that they might be useful for helping people with their own self discovery and personal growth.  You can apply them to this community or to life in general, and you can be as detailed or brief with your answers as you would like.  Please feel free to share your answers here and to share your own ideas and suggestions!  :)   

1) Why are you here?

2) What would you like to learn?

3) What brings you joy?

4) What are you most afraid of?

5) What is one step you can take to move closer to your ideal life?

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shame [27 Feb 2008|09:46pm]

so sad this community fell apart.......so did all the others i was in.....last one who posted......

maybe livejournal just isnt' as popular anymore....maybe people got lives....maybe no one cares anymore....oh well...so goes life

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anyone? [09 Aug 2007|08:36pm]

any ideas for reviving this community?

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hooray...not [08 May 2007|04:06pm]

So yea ive fucked up my second year of college pretty much.....i just can't get my shit together...i have no idea where im going or where i want to go..yay.

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Ohhhh dear i have a dilema! [09 Apr 2007|11:43am]

Ok where do i start, well first off i went for the interview last week for subway, that went well.
I got a phone call the other day to say that i had been selected for a group selection with asda, i really want the job with asda as i have worked with them before and they are a good company to be with, plus when i become a student i need for them to be flexible for me as, i will need to have my hours cut, subway will not be able to do that, well least i don't think they will.
Now the fun begins, i got a phone call yesterday from subway, saying that the manager would like to meet up with me, to make her final decison, i said that was fine and i agreed to meet her today.
I thought about it for a quite a while and thought, i am going to phone them back and and say to them can i meet up on the wednesday instead,(to buy me more time with asda,) as with subway they are wanting someone to start straight away. as she did orginally say wednesday, or the monday, but i picked the monday as she did not tell me what time on the wednesday, the wednesday is when i have my group selection with asda, but the group selection is not until late afternoon, the subway meeting is early morning.
When i phoned subway up today saying that i could not make it today, the manager was fine with me but said that she was going to make her mind up today, but cos i am there top choice, she said that she will hold off until she sees me, the job thats available is 35hrs, which is great!
It is just such a mess, arghhhhhh!!, what do i do? do i take the job in subway and still go to the group selection at asda? or do i turn down the job in subway and then could end up with nothing argghhhhh!

Please help
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Apr. 4th, 2007

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New Poetry!!! [05 Mar 2007|04:40pm]

The muse is being a little vengeful today - she has been growling and snarling at me today, forcing thoughts into my head which - in the case of some - are probably left untouched, unsaid.

Having said that, though, here are four new poems for your reading (dis)pleasure.

PassionCollapse )

Not WorthyCollapse )

The Mask Of SisterhoodCollapse )

Murdered?Collapse )

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Another new poem... [05 Mar 2007|01:32pm]



The moon rises over the pallid sea and
The silvery mist of the meadows –
Silently one by one,
In the infinite meadows of heaven,
Blossoms the lovely stars –
The forget-me-nots of the angels

Her level rays, like golden bars
Lie on the ground below
An eerie green with
Wild shadows cast in brown in between.
Silver white the waters gleam,
As if Artemis herself,
In enpassioned dreams,
Has dropped her silver bow
Down upon the quiet earth.

A very soft spirit worships -
One lovers know and love so well –
Whose influence over
All tides of soul has true power, and
Who lends a pale light to
Rapture and despair;

The glow of hope and wan hue of sick fancy
Are each reflected within the mirror of slivered rays
Lighting the path of meeting or of parting love -
Illuminating the mingling of and
The breaking of hearts one in the same…
An ethereal smile enthroned in beauty.

In the same breath,
The governess of floods -
Pale in her anger –
Washes all the air
That rheumatic diseases do abound.

Through this fit of temper,
We do see the seasons alter

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New Poetry [04 Mar 2007|12:45pm]

My muse, the vengeful little bitch that she is, is stirring there in my mind right now. She hasn't decided whether or not her presence needs to be forceful today, but it has inspired this...

The Muse

There, in the thicket,
Can you see it?
A half-wild beast supping on
A half-cooked stew,
Lingering close to the clearing
Yet not quite willing to enter.

Drawn in by the stench of
Eagerness and hope,
It releases a gut-wrenching snarl and
Moving ever closer with
A gleam and a dare in its eye.

Do you have what it takes –
The depth of faith;
The constitution and patience to
Go as far as needed –
To tame the beast…
To train this thing?

The stench of a still life,
A snapshot of some story
Rattling about in your head,
Draws the beast ever closer –
Snarling, drooling, and
Ready for battle.

Suppositions, superstitions and
Half-finished stories –
The fruit of your imagination –
Is the stuffs of which
The beast creates and cooks
Its nightly repast.

Do you possess it –
The patience and passion necessary to
Tame the beast…
To tame your muse so that
You can put pen to paper and
Clear your wild mind?

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Damn my muse - when she wants something, you must listen! [18 Feb 2007|03:58pm]

Innocently EvilCollapse )

GuiltCollapse )

ExcessCollapse )

The PotionCollapse )

ManCollapse )

SinCollapse )

Mortal CoilCollapse )

If There Is A GodCollapse )

Bella LunitaCollapse )

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The muse is in control yet again! [18 Feb 2007|10:51am]


A harmonious voice of creation
An echo of the invisible world
An outburst of the soul

A moral law which gives
Soul to the universe;
Wings to the mind;
Flight to the imagination;
Charm and gaiety to
Life and everything.

The art which is most apt to
Give way to tears and memory.

That which washes away from the soul
The dust of everyday life.

It speaks what cannot be expressed,
Soothes the mind, yielding to rest;
Heals the heart, making it whole again;
Flows from heaven to the soul.

It causes us to dance -
For laughter and tears;
Hopes and dreams;
Fears and madness;
Love and lust.


To stop the flow of music would be akin
To the stopping of time itself –

Music is enough for a lifetime,
But one lifetime is not enough for

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*gasp* Guess what? Another new one! [18 Feb 2007|10:11am]

Mortality in the Key of E

A man who know he will not die is
A young man.
Kept young by the knowledge that
Death shall have no dominion,
Nothing’s as hard as
Watching that die.

Who knows
The pain of death better –
He who gasps his final breath or
We who must breathe
The foul air of
His decomposition?

Who bears the greater burden –
The cold bones of
The dead man in his coffin or
The spine of
The pallbearer carrying his load?

No one knows this burden better than
We who have seen so many pass.

If we’re going to die,
We should make it count for
Something –
Make a stand.

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Sometimes the muse... [17 Feb 2007|11:59pm]

is a vengeful, spiteful little bitch who refuses to let go - especially when she feels she's been neglected for oh so long.

What Of LoveCollapse )

Deadly ContemplationsCollapse )

Immortal PrisonCollapse )

DesiresCollapse )

Broken ToysCollapse )

FallingCollapse )

FamilyCollapse )

The Chill Of WinterCollapse )

Hellish AlchemyCollapse )

St. ValentineCollapse )

LoveCollapse )

GhostsCollapse )

RevengeCollapse )

*sits back, panting and exhausted - yet bathed in an afterglow*

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Another New One - It's Been a Busy Night [17 Feb 2007|11:48pm]


Who should have lived forever,
Living their last?
Who would ever believe that
They would die?

Life is the enemy we cannot defeat,
Only to cling like parasites on
The living flesh of the universe.

Life will always find a way to
Cheat death,
Hoping that we’re not noticed and
Brushed away with
A flick of the hand.

Life is a gift –
As sweet as the freshest peach,
As precious as a gilded jewel.

You will come back –
You MUST come back!
It is your destiny, and
Destiny will not be trifled with.

For we must never forget
What we are –
Or from whom we came.

This is our lifeblood;
Our nourishment.
Without it we wither and
Become nothing.

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New Poetry - haven't posted in ages [17 Feb 2007|11:40pm]

Midnight's Passioned Plea

His voice was
Silken whispers
In the small hours of the night and
Rolled over me like
A warm lip of ocean –
Pleasurable, caressing.
His lips were velvet;
His tongue a quick wetness.
His breath was hot and sweet
As he whispered into my ear,
“Your pulse I taste like
Cherries on my tongue.
You have taken
My small gift
And polished it ‘til it shone –
Yet your own great gifts
You throw away.
I ran away from your love, and
Now I run towards it so
Let me be covered in your
Silken chains.
Tie me down and
Let me drown in your
Sweet flesh.”

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New boy in town... [13 Jan 2007|05:29am]

[ mood | contemplative ]

Hey gang, going through the posts I've read allot that I can identify with at this moment, so I thought a good Ideal to join.

In my case I know quite well WHO I am, I'm me :P heh heh. I just don't know what to do with myself. Like some of you I was very good a school when I was young, good at everything I tried really. I just couldn't find something I was great at. Found that no one was as good as me in compuers so seeing that I had to do Something with my life I made my way in that direction. So I got a job and it actually pays very well too. But I know that I'm not totally happy here. Everyday I wake up and I go t work cause well I want to eat and pay my bills :P

Since I started to try to find who I was, which was between elementry and high school, I came to realize that I'm not what I do but who I think. With that realization I realized that what I was missing was passion, passion for anything. I simply didn't have it. That one thing that makes you want to wake up in and live the day, that thing that makes you want to take care of yourself. I came to realize that I liked allot of things and allot of people but I didn't LOVE anything or anyone not even my self.

So here I am a litle boy searching for his hart, his passion. Here is the boy who sees his body grow into the man he as become.

Hi I'm Dortheleus, the self proclaimed Watcher of life.

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Confusion [15 Nov 2006|11:20pm]

[ mood | creative ]

So I am single again and everyone always tells me its a good thing this way I can find myself. One of my friends said that you can't find yourself when your in a relationship with someone but I don't agree. When your alone you do have a lot of time to analyze yourself and think about things but when you are with someone you also experience a different side of yourself and you get to view a more in depth perception of how others view you which can in fact be very enlightening to yourself I would think, at least that has always been my experience. Throught the past 4 and a half years since I have been in serious relationships I will admit that I have become an entirely different person than I was say 5 years ago. I may still be stuck in the middle of nowhere as far as my life goes but at the same time I am more relaxed, I know how to laugh and I no longer try to kill myself on a yearly basis. I will also admit that I am not all better I still struggle an ongoing battle with my depression everyday and there have been a few experiences in the past few years that I have drank a bottle of nyquil or take a few too many pills or had way to much to drink with bad intentions but they werent true suicide attempts. I have recently concluded that the 5 year anniversary of my last whole hearted attempt at death is coming up in January. When I was 16 I was on a lot of antidepressants and neurological meds for the side effects of the other meds and I was so frustrated and depressed and I couldn't do it anymore so one afternoon I took all my pill bottles and took all of the pills inside them. Later that evening I was in the kitchen getting ready to work on a project for school I was so happy cause my mom was going to help. Standing in front of the trash can peeling crayons is the last thing I remember before I was being wheeled on a stretcher. I took enough medication to give myself a seizure. Following that my only strong memory between peeling crayons and waking up hours later in the ER was being wheeled out of the house on a stretcher and seeing a beautiful full moon and truly thinking nothing but how beautiful it is. 6 months later I started dating my J whom I was with until the end of march following wich I was single for 2 months than I started seeing someone else until about a month ago. In that time period I have become such a different person than I was that night. To mean whether I've made it to the point of knowing exactly where I am and where I'm going is not the most important thing the fact I can laugh and carry on a conversation and leave my house every day is amazement and proof that I have made it somewhat in the never ending search to know who I am. That alone makes me think that finding yourself can happen at any point in life alone or not. If your in a relationship that prevents you from being you and keeps you from evolving than your in a bad relationship in my opinion. How much sense this makes I'm not sure but its been something that has bothered me a little and I don't agree with my friends ideal at all I shouldn't have to be single to have hopes and dreams and to make something of my life, your ideal mate should help you in those decisions and help create new and better dreams and goals. Thats just my opinion though and I felt I should share...

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[25 Oct 2006|10:18am]

...sometimes I don't feel whole unless I'm around a specific person. almost as if I find myself in them and nowhere else....anyone else get that?

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newbie here... [25 Oct 2006|04:24pm]

[ mood | calm ]

i like the concept of this community..."Finding Yourself"...

when do we ever find ourselves completely? it's a life-long journey, and the journey is what matters, not the destination.

every little thing life throws at us is a chance to find ourself.

until next time...

peace. :D

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Newbie to the community [12 Oct 2006|01:24pm]

[ mood | okay ]

Greetings everyone--

I am a newbie to LiveJournal and I am just trying to find my way around this website. I love this whole live journal concept! I found myself not having the time to write in a physical book journal, but this online journal is the BOMB!

This community is just what I have been searching for. I have been struggling everyday trying to find out who I am. And what do I want from LIFE. And pray every day that I will one day find out who I am suppose to be. Because at the age of 31 I have NO clue!!

About me...well I am a laid back, stress-free, drama free 31 years old black female. I have been married for 8 months and I do not have any children. I am currently an accountant for a telecommunication company.

I have been a bi-sexual female my entire life. Well I fell in love with my handsome husband and decided to give up the "gay" life within me! Well guess what? I am finding out the hard way. You can not just give it up. It stays with you for life. And of course my new husband has suggested that I get counseling. But I am afraid because I do not know who I am. I am depressed most of the time about this issue. My husband asks me everyday am I okay. And I just say yes...because I do not want him to think that I do not love him...because I do love him with all my heart. I have tried to disassociate myself from the "gay" life, but I can not! It's everywhere I go. I can not help myself when I see a beautiful lady to not check her out. I have tried turning my head and everything but that doesn't work either. So I am stuck with this attraction to women that I just can not get rid of!! I have no idea of what to do. I guess I am going to have to get counseling for real. But my question is how do you get rid of something that is a part of who you are?

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[29 Aug 2006|03:47pm]

Hi everybody. :) 

So...I'm starting over, I guess.  I was one of those people who devoted themselves entirely to one person, and gave up everything else in my life as a result.  And now that's over, abruptly and unexpectedly.  After that, I got kicked out of my house by my parents, and that one guy is out of the picture, and I'd been terrible to my friends, so we'd become alienated already, and now I'm left with me.  Which would be way easier if I had any real sense of self, outside of what used to be my world.

So I'm building myself up from scratch now, from almost nothing to what I hope one day I'll be, and be confident of.  I thought I'd say something here.  I've got lots of hope, and love for everyone, and I just thought I'd say something here.  

This is a rad idea for a community.  I hope everybody finds something to look for.

You're all beautiful.


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